Realization

Ever since I was a kid I have had trouble with my weight.  I'd like to blame it on the fact that I live in a family that celebrates life with food and that my mother was a fantastic cook.  But the blame lies solely with the fact that I am all about the food. 

This is me at my smallest (I'm the cute one with all the curls).  

About twelve years-ago I thought I had the whole over-weight thing beat by losing 150lbs.  Wrong!  It's not about dieting and losing weight, its all about eating right and living right.

So here's me after gaining back some of that weight (I'm the fat one in front).

So now my focus is not to lose weight, necessarily, but to learn how to live.  (at 51 it's better late than never).  This is not an easy lesson for someone of my age to learn either. After all I am still all about the food.  Just for an example, my eldest son turns 29 this weekend and I have spent the last couple of days planning his birthday meal and checking the budget to see how all out I can go.  He says he doesn't care but this is my way of saying I love you and so it must be done.  (Not that he won't enjoy the lasagna dinner followed by strawberry rhubarb pie)
So what does all of this mean you may ask.  Why am I bothering to set this all down for posterity to remember?  Because life is all about balance.  I can celebrate with the food and the family dinners but I also have to balance that out with celebrating me and my health by being wise with what and how much I consume and then not sitting on my butt letting it all go to my hips.
Here's to a lasagna dinner to remember and a good run when it is all over.

The Simple Woman's Daybook 4 March 2013

Outside my window...the snow is lightly coming down.  The temp. was 22 when I was out earlier.  The weather man is threatening us with more snow later in the week, go figure.  This is the time of year when even snow lovers get a bit tired of the white-stuff.

I am thinking...about life.  Thinking about how lives appear from the outside and trying hard to remember that my life often looks perfect to others when it isn't .

I am thankful...for good friends and the use of their house while they are away.  It is so much easier to get my writing done when I am alone.  The silence and solitude are also conducive to a fruitful Lent as well.

From the kitchen...there is nothing exciting to report.  MK and I are both starting a cleanse before beginning the Candida diet.  Wish me luck!

I am wearing...sweats!  Staying in most days is very conducive to being comfortable.  Being comfortable is a great assist with writing.

I am going....to stay home each and every day unless I am absolutely forced to go out.  We will see if that plays out.

I am reading...nothing for fun.  

I am hoping...that Matthew is successful in the next couple of week's training.  

I am hearing...the sounds of the house creaking and groaning as it settles in for the night.  This old house is pleasantly noisy as it lives it's daily life around me.

Around the house...there is a distinct feeling of home! This house has sheltered so many families in it's long life so that the atmosphere breathes comfort and safety.  This house is one of the only other houses outside my own that I feel completely comfortable being in.

One of my favorite things...immersing myself in a good mystery, one that I cannot figure out before the end.

A few plans for the rest of the week...write, read, pray and spend my time in the silence of my own thoughts.

Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...

The view of my office for the next week.