There's no place like home.

There's no place like home.
Home is where my husband and I reside; wherever that may be.

Monday, February 23, 2015

I struggle too

Don't put me up there on that pedestal.
not anywhere but in your prayers.

Don't tell me how strong, patient,
loving, kind, or holy I am.

Put me in your prayers.

I struggle too
you just may not see it.

"You couldn't do what I am doing"
how many times have I heard that one.

Neither can I do what I do
without your prayers.

"how you must love.."
that's another one I hear.

Love, what's love?
right now I sure don't feel it.

I just need your prayers.

Purgatory shortened, heaven guaranteed,
just because I carry hell inside of me?

It's your prayers,
I just need your prayers.

Admiration, you can keep it
I know what's inside of me

I beg you for your prayers

Kind words, they are for the good
I live with what's inside of me

I only want those prayers.


Wednesday, February 4, 2015

To vaccinate or not to vaccinate...who the hell cares what you decide?

There is a lot of crap stuff on the internet about vaccines and all the horrible things that they do to kids.  There is so much out there that it is difficult to weed out what is true and what is written by some person with an ax to grind.  Right now I don't know if it is the low blood sugar, the fact that I am off my meds, (never a safe thing), or my current living situation but I am sick and tired of all that I have seen.

I gave birth to 7 children and raised 6 of them.  Over the years we fostered 40 babies and young toddlers. All of these kids were vaccinated.  No, before it is falsely assumed, my husband and I didn't blindly take our kids and have them filled full of these terrible chemicals just because it was expected or the thing to do.  Each time they were given their vaccinations it was with forethought and prayer.  We knew the risks and the benefits.

I now have four grandchildren; two have been vaccinated and two have not.  Do I try to persuade the parents of the unvaccinated to mend their ways?  Certainly not!  Do I warn the vaccinated ones to keep them away from the other two?  Let's be real!

Let's talk about the scuttlebutt out there.  I know kids who have been vaccinated who are autistic as well as kids who were not vaccinated who suffer from the same condition.  So what? You think God is going to allow the affliction only with the vaccinated kids? I think not.  I know kids who have been vaccinated who get measles, mumps, chicken pox, etc anyway and those who haven't been vaccinated who never contract these diseases even though they were exposed.  That isn't the point at all.  The choice to vaccinate or not isn't about the ultimate, absolute or the perfect.

The bottom line is what I told my kids when they were growing up and I said no to them: "When you are responsible for your own healthcare and salvation then you can make those decisions. As long as it is up to me you'll do what I think is best."