Take one woman in her mid to late 40's, take a life-time of experiences; a lot of experiences, and you get a life-time of learning. The thing is, with this woman, most of that learning has come late in life. Mind, the experiences were scattered throughout her whole life but she is a bit slow at the learning thing. With her it takes time, sometimes a lot of time, for things to sink in.
So here she is in here late 40's and some of the lessons are finally beginning to sink in. Some are even beginning to gel, a bit. You may ask if this is an attempt to pass on some of those experiences? Maybe give a bit of wisdom to those who come after so that they don't have to learn things the hard way. This is neither. This is purely selfish. Purely a way of reflecting and recounting. A way for me to run through what has happened to me in my life and what I have gotten from it. A way to put it all down and see if there is anything else that I might be missing.
If along the way someone gets something from this, more power to them, if not, then I didn't fail at still another thing in my life. Sound like a cop out? Too bad.